Lifes seems 2 pass me by........

In Times Of

by Kit McCallum

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.

It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...

Yet finds no direction.

My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.

It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...

Yet it somehow eludes me.

My eyes seek out visions in times of want.

They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...

Yet they cannot see the light.

My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.

They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...

Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.

My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.

They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...

Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.

My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.

It poses intense questions that demand answers ...

Yet there are none to be found.

My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.

It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...

And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

Valentine's Day is not that bad after all.......

Valentine's day was not as boring as last year............got a few gals wishing me Happy Valentine's Day......... pretty gals wishing me Happy Valentine's Day............ i gave someone chocolate and she didnt expect it 2 come from me.........she appreciate the gift and thanked me 4 it..............(tis is a different person not 'her')

She is nice, and cute gurl tat i kinda hav a crush on her last time............... now, its coming back tat crush on her .......... after she receive it, se straight away sms me, when i was sleeping...............i really dun mind coz i knew she cared...........
it nice 2 hav someone 2 car 4 u.......... : )

Valentine's Day comin'............

Looks like it will be another year of a meaningggglesssss, borrrrrringggggg, valentine's day 4 me again for 3 years in a row................ no one 2 go out with.......nobody to giv gifts.............. 2 add 2 da misery...........lecture classs in the morning (sign)..............
look's lik it gonna pass me by just lik other ordinary day i go through everyday........... so lameeee......... :(

--life is meaningless--

Happy Chinese New Year to all !!!!!!!

Today is da 1st day of CNY.................. (sign) no really going anywhere tis year...........just stay @ home ndstare @ da com whole day.............my frens all went 2 Kuantan and im stuck here in Selangor......... no place 2 go coz all close 4 CNY................ nothing 2 do.........so, i'll write more and paste on my blog.......

She's still in my mind............

As the days go by...............i still cant get her out of my head..........every day and every night, i'll thinking of her.......i've try to 4get tat crush but to no avail.........wat should i do? is there a solution 2 tis promblem tat im facing???....... Can someone help to find a way out of this dilemma tat im in???.......... i feel kinda strange and when i see her and when i dun c her i feel something is not rite in me.............wat a problem tis is.............
Anyway, life is going upwards and downwards in me........... (sign) im happy sometimes and a bit sad and down........one day u'll c me happy and joking around, another day, i'll be a poor, sad guy........ wat a miserable life im going through............ nobody can c rite through me coz its all covers with a different type of feeling..............but deep down inside its all dark, insecurity, pain from previous break ups and rejection which nobody noes bout' it........... i dun really let other people noe how am i feeling rite now.............not even my best friends..............all i noe tat i hav 2 live on in life and hope the rite gal 4 me is out there 4 me 2 search 4 her........
-" Life is a rollercoaster just like inside of me"- Ronald Keating's album "rollercoaster"