Saturday, October 22, 2005

Rainy Days

Rainy Days
by Charlotte Mair

There can be nothing quite as awesome
As Mother Nature spewing her tears on us

Seems rain makes most feel depressed and futile
But it makes me think of the past and gives calm

If ever my times are bad
Rain soothes me

Tiny droplets on the panes
Refresh me, lift me

Sprinkling spatters cool my face
As I look in to the sky -- all lost loves wash clean


Falling deep in to my thoughts -- refreshed
Sleep says hello to my dreams

Patting down on a tin roof -- rain sings
Making the night clear for a new dawn

Never can there be a more soothing sound to me
Breathe the air -- it is fresh and clean
A sound of nature that is free for the choosing
Take this gift of the earth
Use it for your musing
Appreciate the days of rain
And the sun will always shine on your tomorrow

Monday, October 10, 2005

A day with mixed feeling.........

Today, it was not an ordinary day for me as it was mixed so many types of emotions....there's sad, happy, angry, frustrated, and calmness and in 1 day...(i noe wat u guys r thinking.....heck other oso feels the same way everyday....)
anyway......the day started off wit blocked nose and i can practically smell nothing....i was also snezzing all the way to college and also in class.....after that, i had a meeting with my sub-ordinates as a group leader.....aaiya...no need to say lah....always must have meeting one.....the turn out was poor as not all attended the meeting, i was a bit annoyed that time, but it was still ok for me....them me and my team members sat down to discuss some matters regarding our project.....i ask all my team members who were present there to come up with an idea for a theme....althought it was so sudden, we had to brainstorm the idea....on of my fren said something that triggered a fuse in my brain and i exploded in front of everyone(not literary lah), i pack my stuff and left for home.....accidently kicking a chair in the cafeteria and left college....was furious at that time at the same time felt guilty for doing that to my sub-ordinates.....i went to pyramid to vent my anger, so i went to the bowling alley to bowl.....it didnt make me better but even worst....as i couldnt concentrate and keeping getting splits.....i was more furious that time.....then, i went home.....
to make matters worst.....i lost RM5 when i was going home....i only found out when i was at home.....that time.....still angry....
later on,.....watch some TV and i felt a bit cool off tat time.....still, the scene in college still taunts me.....
at around 6pm, (btw, tat was my time 2 use da net @ home), when i was about to use the comp......the stupid electricity suddenly shuts down for 1 hour......anger rise a bit that time....
around 7.12pm, electricity came back......yay!!!! anger gone half of it.....
then, around just now, at 8.45pm, i receive an email from one of my friends and also subordinate......she said that she was not angry with me and understand my feeling of the pressure of stress........immediatly, all my anger went away in an instance......now, happily writing this blog.....

just wanna tell everyone reading this, that if life is on a tight rope, whisper a prayer to God as he'll help you in your life and makes everything beautiful in the end........

Monday, October 03, 2005

Transition of my life.......














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i dont really remember my past except for bits and pieces of memories from a very young age.......i've to ask my mom and dad about my past and how did i behave when i was little.......after "interviewing"with my parents about my past......now i'm gonna post something about it.....

5th of June 1986, around 6.10am, people are just waking up to prepare for work, school kids waiting for the bus to get a ride to school, hawker centers were serving breakfast at this time........
on that faithful moment, i was born in University Hospital, KL.........

when i came out of my mother's womb, i was underweight(seriously...no joke!!!) i weigh in under 2.2kg......unlike my sibling, where they weigh in a normal baby's weight......

throught my mom's explaination, actually, i was suppose to be gone a long time ago at the age of two and a half......my mom said that 1 day, when we're crossing the road, upon reaching the other side of the road, i wanted to ran back to the middle of the road (i dunno y i even did tat....)my mom and dad couldn't stop me as i was running fast that time.....there were a car coming at a fast rate....then as i was running, i suddenly stop for no apparent reason and the car just drove pass me....i was just about a feet a way from the car.......

another incident is that, when i was 6 years old, my younger brother accidently pulled my teeth out with a hanger....both my front teeth came out and throughout tadika, i was without my two front teeth (it eventually grew back b4 i entered primary skool....hehe)

i was very skinny back then....i only put on weight when i was about 9 years old......if im not mistaken.....year after year i begin to be more chubbier, then when i was in form 3 i begin to maintain my weight until now.....hehe....

im not gonna dive in my love life as its obsolete to my post (sori flamers, i malas 2 post bout it too much.....) but all i can tell is that my first crush was when i was 9 years old...i only knew her about a year before she transfered to another school the following year.....until now couldn't find her anywhere....haih.....

i don't to elaborate too much of my life as i just post to you guys is just a-need-to-know-basis.....hehe....

then, my life has it's up's and down's, winning and losing, friends and foes i meet and which have come and go......people i knew.....places i went.....(i noe im just at the tender age of 19 and still have more to experience),
to put it in a simple layman's term.....i leave a normal teenage life.....a complicated 1......hehe....
other post of my transition.....will be post at other time when i get more info of myself.......